New Session

So a new Session of Weight Watchers starts today and I feel ready to make a bigger effort. I think thats whats great about the continuous reinforcement, I get off the horse, but keep getting reminders to try and try again.

This morning I had cheerios and skim milk (no sugar added) and lunch I had tuna on wheat with light mayo and instead of baked chips i chose the apple wedges.

Akemi gave me two small one-bite chewy fruit candies from the UK, so I skipped the froyo.

I am proud of all these choices today, but being back at work after a four day weekend is tiring!

so nothing else too new ....well thats a lie.

okay, so an old friend visited me this weekend. he and i met not long after i moved to SF when I was 18 or 19 and he is definitely a different kind of person. he doesnt seem to want to settle and make anything of himself and never has. he likes to jump around to different cities, in different relationships and def. loves to talk about himself and seems to embelish and make himself sound very smart and worldly. Like he knows something about everything. I always chalked this up to character and appreciated him when he was around for being a friend and being himself. We were briefly involved forever ago, but I think we both knew we were never a match.

Anyway, it had been five years since I had seen him adn in the past year or so I had had some conversations with him and some email exchanges that lead me to believe he had changed. Maybe he is more sincere and sensative, maybe this is someone worth remaining friends with. So before he goes into the military or mvoes to Hawaii, I told him to visit. Perfect timing too because I had a four-day weekend. Well I didnt see much of him at all since he came and he wasnt very communicative about his plans. He fell in and out of love, went on a drinking bindge and flirted in the castro. He left his bag at my house and blew off my neighbors BBQ. I left like a relative he was crashing with and it hurt. He was at least good about telling me where he was at until Monday, then he calls Tuesday night and picks up his bag. I shoved it through the door and let him go.

I am done with friends like these. I have grown up and I dont need the drama and I certainly dont need someone who doesnt have any interest in me or my life.

He did IM me briefly, in which I responded with an honest email. And thats it.

I have lost a few friends in my life, some by choice and some not. It never gets easier, but everyone has to make their own choices and live their life how they will.

I am thankful for the good friends I have, the love in my life and my family.

Okay, I am sure there are other subjects, but thats all for today.